A new blog eh.

So I really enjoyed writing a blog on my travels across the east coast. At least I enjoyed knowing that people enjoyed them. I really disliked writing them. The reason being is that I'm not too committed to anything...especially a blog. Some of those blogs I wrote took hours upon hours to make. The recalling of the stories, the typing of the stories, the posting of pics, the shrinking down of pics, the placing of pics. sheesh. it was a drag. And when i was driving around living like a nomad, (AdamusNomus) I didn't write as often and brief as I should've. My Baaaddddd Dogggg!!!  But this is behind me. I still haven't gone back and finished that blog. Who knows if I ever will. I think i will one day. Maybe. Look how uncommital I am.

So I read a blog of an old friend. It was inspirational. I wanted to let out some of the honest thoughts that go through my mind. Now that faith is pretty much behind me, it's almost like a new beginning. Not that faith is completely gone from my brain.. how could it? I still have faith that there is this invisible designer behind all this magnificence that surrounds me. I just don't have faith in faith in God working amongst me.

So I hope this first blog isn't long. kind of just an update.


I went and applied at jobs when i got back to san antonio. The suggestion of kinkos sounds interesting to me. I grew up in print shops. I grew up sleeping in print shops with my mother typing and working her ass off til 1..2...3 o'clock in the morning. Driving home late at night. My mom carrying her 8 year old back to his bed. Anyway, that's not why I want to work there... it just sounds more interesting to me. I think I have somewhat of an eye for print and layout type stuff.. but i don't know. I still don't know what my strengths are. Kinkos nor Office Depot hasn't responded. But I went to my old job at Amcon Controls to take them some candy for Christmas and my old boss asked if I wanted to work the next day. For Sure. I need the money no doubt for when it's time to fix my car. So i've been working the past 3 to 4 weeks and will be back at amcon part time with some full time hours. I was offered a job in Louisiana at a sign shop full time....for a few months... and i would've been jumped on it, but the wage was just about half of what i was offered here in san antonio...and i'm needing more money quick to ficks (just wanted to type fix this way for some reason) my car (which will be here January 25th, yay).

I didn't get sick for four months living out of my car (and friends houses) up in the cold North East and MidWest. But sure enough after New Years, I got slammed with a flu type cold thing. I don't know what it was. I never get sick.

This is what goes through my mind about God. So when i started thinking that i might be getting sick, i started writing a cheesy song about maybe it's god making me sick cuz i'm running from him. but then in the song i just realize that the day before I hadn't drank enough water and i did quite a lot of bike riding. So why would I think it's god doing it...it's just me not making wise decisions....sure enough...after I started drinking water.. i got sicker...and sicker.. and then i was out cold. I hate thinking stuff like this: like it's god hunting me down and doing bad things to me. It's not healthy for my psyche.

Anyhow. This is a brief update. I'm gonna start going back to school again I presume. i registered for some more classes.. Still working on my basics as I have been since 1997 when I graduated Tom Clark highschool.

This isn't too long. I'll be keeping you informed with my daily musings on life and boredom.

Love from the Adameth.